wattahellll ?

Yea, i cry fr a night last two days. Its just , who the hell stupid buddy tell him about the sms thing tu ? Haishhh .. Panas je aku. Just imagine , i just text my ex fr say goodbye , then , i dunno how , where and when he knws bout it ! Ahh.. fickkkoffff . Okay , i shouldnt say like that, but , geram gilaa weyh.. Tanya kat dua dua orang tuh , tak mengaku pulak -.- Then , sape yg bagitau ? Hantu ? -.- Honestly , i knw its my fault. I shouldn't text him at all. I already make a promised. But , i just dunwanna hve an enemy or haters. Lagi lagi before this , we're friend since primary school en, so i was like " oh ya , this is life man . Forget, forgive." But then , i think i was wrong! I make a mistake! I lie ! To myself,him, she and others. Damn guiltyy :(  I just want to be nice and perfect infront of him , she and them eventhough i  knw i shouldn't make a lies like that. PLUSSS i know that no ones is perfect. I admit  tht i'm AFRAID to change. I am not enough strong to face this situation. I knw, i breaks the promised , i break their hearts. I truly knw how its hurt. Its so deep inside. I try to be a better person , no more lies. Because i am really really tired at all. At the end, i'm the person who will get hurt. I can see hw they mad at me because they dunwanna me  get hurt for the second time. Hw cruel i am. Till now , i still thinking , WHO THE HELL STUPIDEST BUDDY EVER that tell him bout it -.-

Guys, i DO love you .
Mianhae.


Love,
Maizurah